July 2010
3 posts
it’ll all get better in time.
it’s been such a long time since i’ve updated this. really, life got in the way. from falling in love with a boy, to doing things i’ve never done, to screwing up and making the most of it, to getting my heart broken, to learning how to be strong and what growing up really means…and just when i thought all the bad things were over…someone i was close to killed herself...
September 2009
1 post
i’m trying to not care anymore.
but it’s a day by day process, and some are harder than others.
June 2009
7 posts
to do list
-stop undercutting every compliment anyone gives me
-tell my best friends how much they mean to me
-don’t feel so damn unpretty
-have fun at work!
-write in my gratitide journal every night. it really does help.
-forgive myself.
-love myself.
“Regret nothing. Not the cruel novels you read
to the end just to find out who...”
– Dorianne Laux (via jessicachu)
I don’t know where I’ve been lately. Physically I’ve been busy as heck; taking my exams and studying and working. It’s been exhausting. But mentally, I have absolutely no idea where I’ve been. I tried to explain it to a friend a couple of days ago. This is as best as i can explain it:
Right now the lump-in-the-throat pain floods me, steals my breath. It passes,...
“I’m afraid of time… I mean, I’m afraid of not having enough time. Not enough...”
– Ann Brashare (via creampuff) (via jessicachu)
Things that make you go hmmm
jessicachu:
antikris:
I am out of touch. I am so out of touch with this world of dating that I dont know how to take interactions between a man and myself anymore. I used to be able to read what a person was feeling, thinking, etc…or at least I thought I did. These days, I have no fucking clue. I have no clue what happened, what to expect, or what to look forward to. The mystery of life...
May 2009
20 posts
Strip away the name. Who are you?
i hate having curly hair. no matter WHAT i do, it...
can i just say
that saying goodbye doesn’t seem like it ever gets any better? i wake looking for him. i call out his name, forgetting that he will never be able to answer again. i have huge bags under my eyes because i simply can’t sleep anymore. i try to keep busy, but no matter what i do, the pain is still there, fresh and raw. and the thing that gets me the most is that my friends act like i...
life is tough.
it’s a rainy sunday and i’ve been home alone all day long. lonely is a well known feeling today.
but workk at four today, not that i’m excited. but at least i will be able to communicate with someone other than my dogs!
5.17.09
gatekeeper:
starsnatcher:
And she was so tired of feeling so helpless, flying in circles and bumping into cold metal walls. She was tired of trying and tired of breathing and wondering why. But in that moment, she realized life is for shattered moonlight and soft feathers and the few seconds when the sun rises and there isn’t room for anything else.
“everything is more complicated than you think. you only see a tenth of what is...”
– synecdoche, new york (via watersounds)
i hate doing laundry!
“There are too many books I haven’t read, too many places I haven’t seen, too...”
– Irwin Shaw (via kari-shma) (via quote-book)
“The highest form of wisdom is kindness”
– The Talmud (via alicesrestaurant) (via quote-book)
“Feelings never do make sense. They get you all confused. Then they drive you...”
– Blair Waldorf. (via meesters) (via alligatorsaurus) (via kari-shma) (via jussstkirsten)
“Feelings never do make sense. They get you all confused. Then they drive you...”
– Blair Waldorf. (via meesters) (via alligatorsaurus) (via kari-shma) (via jussstkirsten)
“A total stranger once said to me, “You’re a goddamn treasure and if they don’t...”
– (via victoryblues) (via gatekeeper) (via jussstkirsten)
If you can make it to tomorrow, this'll all be in...
(via out-of-touch)
I’m ready to crawl in bed and just…cry.
no matter what, i always come back to these same...
.
I woke up on time. Had a hearty breakfast. Had plenty of pencils sharpened and snacks ready. Left on time to get there 15 minutes early. Arrived there just fine. Once I got there, however, I realized I forgot my calculator. Had 10 minutes till they closed the doors. I couldn’t do it without the calculator; told my dad to meet me halfway with it. I got my calculator, but I didn’t make...
April 2009
153 posts
“Sometimes late at night I think about all the...
jussstkirsten:
breathsoftruth:
howtofightloneliness:
dirtywhite:
suzywire:(via morganmartinez)
“Whenever you leave something you loved so much that meant the entire world to...”
– Boy Meets Love (via kari-shma) (via quote-book) (via jussstkirsten)
on days like today where i'm frustrated and...
everything is turned around when a friend calls out of the blue just to see how i am, how things are going, and to simply just talk to me.
i'm baccccckkk, after being away for what seems...
things I'm still learning how to do:
-Stop eating when I’m filled up
-Forgive myself
-Look in the mirror and not hate what I see
-Enjoy the moments for once, even when bad things happen
-Write in cursive, legibly
-Not compare myself to her, she will always be smarter
-Trust
it's 87 degrees out!
i already went to the beach and tanned—i love this weather!
i eat a packet of peach flavored oatmeal for...
heart to heart.
jussstkirsten:
rentedsurroundings:
It was a Thursday, and my heart had conquered my mind. I spent my hours feeling, not thinking. I spent my seconds sinking, not drowning. I spent my moments with a reassured notion that everything is going to be okay. There’s no need to fight against the current. If your heart is in the game, your mind is just the referee. Bought in to take a time out, when...
I always look for love.
shakalakaboomboom-uth:
ventisette:
I try to find it in every boy I meet, I think about making snowmen and then warming up under a blanket by a fire. I think about sitting in cafes, reading famous literature and stopping each other to share thoughts and insights over a piece of lemon poppyseed loaf. I think about us growing old and holding hands as we walk down a pier. I look for this in...
“Raise your hand if you have ever thought any of the following things:
She’s so...”
– galadarling.com (via aworldofwant) (via saynicole) (via pieceofmymind) (via none-)
it's 5:48am here, and i'm just wondering
what time is it where you are?
boys are big mean poop heads.
another rainy day=another baddd hair day :(